hmm.
suppose to meet june to go back bartley de.
but ended up i din went.
sorry june.
not i wana pang sei u de.
juz tat i reallie wana go hgss to see mdm chia.
SORRY!
=(
hmm.
so i ended up meeting yun.
and went to hgss.
yup.
saw mdm chia.
aka ms chia.
which we used to call her 5yrs ago?
hee.
yup.
yes.
saw her!
hug hug.
i din cry tis yr!
still rmb last yr went back to see her.
i cried.
coz reallie miss her so much.
and was reallie shocked to see her.
we 3 reallie meet each other exactly 1 yr later.
her words juz now reallie touches mi too.
she asked we 2 to work hard.
our future is juz ahead of us.
our heart is still there.
din changed along the yrs.
lucky i din cry.
hey!
dun sae im cry baby hor.
im juz being emotional.
LOL~
=D
still rmb the first time i cried infront of her.
tat was when im sec2.
it was on teachers dae too.
bcoz i dropped her cake.
i reallie feel guilty at tat point of time.
and i cried.
hee.
=p
hmm.
she sae she wana haf a meal wif us.
she oso sae it last yr.
but it din success.
was so sad.
hmm.
hope tis yr will success ba!
=)
if there is.
it will be aft yun's a's.
hmm.
yup.
im looking forward for it!
lol.
hmm.
i reallie miss those daes which mdm chia was teaching us.
so fun and loving.
still rmb tat she sae tat she is our mother.
and we all(1e4'00) are her children.
hee.
=)
she do sae some jokes in class.
she juz now oso asked us cold jokes.
lol.
she will oso sae some meaningful short stories for us.
hai.
reallie those sec sch daes man.
hmm.
i pon sch todae.
hee.
den mdm chia ask mi todae no sch ar?
i sae got.
den she sae nvm.
she will write letter to my sch.
lol.
kidding de lah.
hmm.
tink tml will oso poning my night class too.
=x
to watch superstar final.
hee.
=p
hmm.
aft visiting mdm chia.
we went to hg pt mug.
mug.
mug.
mug.
mug.
mug.
tired.
lol.
oso met xiu for my 5566 cd.
hee.
got it le!
=p
hmm.
sth i will miss and rmb forever.
no matter wat i will not forget de.
=)

damn it.
im so tired.
i tink i sae it in sch alot of times.
lol.
last night slp at 3am.
doing 2009 de flowchart.
practising maths for the quiz.
flipping thru eda tools de book for the common test.
woke up at 630am.
power hor mi.
lol.
hmm.
hai.
but im sad.
din did quite well for maths quiz.
20/25.
tat bastured keep saeing its juz reading of table.
ya.
i noe.
but.
still need some thinking ba i suppose.
im not in a good state of taking tat quiz.
coz i was keep worrying abt my eda tools de test.
so ended up get 20 for the maths quiz.
though im sad.
but i juz hafta accept it.
ok.
fine.
tat was over.
dun tink abt it liao.
next.
is the eda tools de common test.
wah.
tat wan die le lah.
i sway sway kena ac circuit.
which i din even did it b4!
wth!
aft the test.
my whole class was like.
"die liao lah"
"fail liao lah"
"holland lah"
"up the lorry"
LOL!
haha.
den we were saeing.
if hafta retake.
whole class retake toether.
tat will be fun.
and tat berlinda dunno hafta write how thinck de report.
saeing y whole class fail.
LOL!
but.
CHOY!
who wana retake sia.
hopefully wun ba.
tink wun be so sway ba.
ya.
lets pray ba.
haha.
den juz now dunno who sae we din go pray tats y so difficult.
*ya kailin we din go pray to our "gods"! lol =D
hmm.
aft tat eda tools de test.
is 2098 de quiz.
tat dun even look like quiz lor.
was discussing ans all ths way.
haha.
phew~
finally the hard dae was over liao.
hmm.
tml not going sch.
coz tml teachers' dae eve!
im going back bartley.
and going to hougang sec to see mdm chia wif yun!!!
actually i more keen to go hougang sec to see mdm chia.
coz 1 yr din see her le!
miss her!
lol.
but.
not i not keen to see teachers in bartley.
juz tat recently juz went back mah.
so will still go back and see see lor.
if not later the daes i miss them and i will regret y din i went back.
yup.
hmm.
2 more daes.
ya.
juz left 2 more daes.
samuel will be leaving to canada.
will miss him.
will miss his cars.
will miss his rides.
LOL!
he sae he will go store b4 he leave.
to see us.
hmm.
think tat was the last time le ba.
reallie lor.
aft he leave.
the whole store no fun.
im like suffering there lor.
and tat serene like not happie taking so many off daes.
but.
i dun care she not happie.
tat time louise doing schedule.
i din took so many off.
when shanen doing oso.
irene too.
ya.
i juz simply dun wana help her.
im bad?
watever.
i dun gif a damn to her.
oh ya.
rayson is leaving soon.
end of sep or mid of sep.
heard tat he found a better job.
tats y he is leaving.
hmm.
he leave ah.
din affect mi so much.
coz im oso not tat close to him.
so 1 new 1st assit will come.
will be who?
who noes.
juz wait and see ba.

hmm.
went to work aft tat incident on sat and sun.
nth happen.
tink im tinking too much le lah.
=)
hmm.
i seem like veri busy recently.
3 tests tml.
tink im not reallie prepared for all.
die.
juz finished 2009 project de flowchart.
den got 1 more 2098 de project.
omg.
it sux.
hai.
ok.
now not reallie in the mood of blogging.
hafta go study le.
but will still update myself.
=)

hmm.
din go for band.
coz tue got 3 tests.
sian.
hmm.
as i had decided not to go work todae.
but sth reallie SERIOUS happen.
made mi hafta go to work le.
hai.
ytd went to work.
was doing mds.
7+ got damn lots of order.
i was the 1 who is keying in orders.
as there are so damn lot of orders.
n oso dunno WTH we onli got 2 riders.
so we din collect payment every trip they went out.
but by right we shld lah!
den aft awhile.
den came in 1 more rider.
we was thinking.
wah good.
but not frm our store de lah.
i tink he is standby de.
but.
he wanted us to collect his payment b4 we went out.
i saw alex collected frm him.
so i oso collect lor.
but we all were so damn busy!
at tat point of time.
i was holding on to the card.
he got 3 orders on his hand.
so i suppose to collect 3 orders de amt frm him.
he took the calculator n he calculated himself.
it shows $22.05.
he gave mi $22.10.
so logically i gif him change 5cents.
aft collected payment.
we hafta sign.
so i signed tat 3 orders.
ok.
den.
aft tat peak period of time.
faridah came.
was taking over cash.
she went to count the mds drawer.
short of near to $40.
omg!
all of us were shocked!
we all were keep counting.
keep tellying wif everything.
den i got the feeling i did sth wrong.
so i took out tat 3 orders tat i signed for him.
i add up the amt.
its $60.80.
instead of $22.05.
ARGH!
at tat point of time.
feel like crying.
feel like resigning.
ARGH!
guess wats wrong.
tat rider onli add up 2 out of tat 3 orders.
he din add the large order which amt $38.75.
so tat drawer is short of $38.75.
omg.
i reallie dun understand y i made such a BIG mistake.
i dun understand y i din re-calculate the amt.
he tell mi is $22.05 den i treat it as $22.05.
stupid right mi.
HAI.
tat was a reallie BIG fall for mi.
for my life working.
i din made such a BIG mistake b4!
somemore tis is cash problem.
i can get a warning letter for tis de leh.
but.
i doesn't wan a black mark in my working record.
hai.
bo bian.
faridah hafta call josias abt tis.
i was so worried wat he will sae.
but.
he din sae ath.
he told faridah is reflect.
phew~
but i cried.
CRIED!
i feel so sorrie.
i noe i sae how many sorrie oso no use de.
its my fault.
hai.
sob.
i noe ppl do make mistake.
but.
tat is cash problem!
y am i so careless at tat point of time?!
ARGH!!!
hai.
actually i fear and afraid most is the mgrs will lose trust in mi.
i gain so much trust frm them.
n help them to do so much things.
will they dun trust mi aft tis incident?
the feeling of losing trust frm ppl is reallie bad.
IT FEEL BAD!!!
i dun wan them not to trust mi.
i noe.
once bitten twice shy.
i will be more careful next time de.
but.
will they trust mi again?
and.
DUN LET MI SEE TAT RIDER AGAIN!!!
STUPID IDIOT BLOODY F**KING DISHONEST GUY!!!
tonight is josias working.
i decided to go work is bcoz i dun wan him to tink im avoiding.
dunno wat he will sae to mi.
hai.
hmm.
faridah lost her hp.
hai.
another long story.
dun wana sae le lah.
i juz can conclude.
ytd was a bad dae.
=(
i hope later go to work everything will goes on smoothly.
=/

argh!
im confuss!
wo hen luan!
argh!
i reallie dunno he is good or bad?!
wat can i do to noe he is good or bad?!
argh!
i will be crazy soon one dae if tis continues!
i tot he is heartless.
wouldn't wana care abt mi le.
ignore mi le.
den juz now he chatted wif mi in msn!
asking mi hows my oral.
wat is the meaning of tat?!
hai!
argh!
hmm.
or is he waiting for mi to let go?
i tot of tat too.
but.
i oso dunno lah.
ok.
fine.
watever lah.
hmm.
im wondering sth.
if u need help frm others.
will u expect others to come n help u automatically?
or will u go seek help frm others?
if mi.
i will go seek help frm others.
coz im the one who need help mah.
so wat will be ur choice?
hmm.
i reallie wish to leave all my wild thoughts aside.
n concentrate on things tat i suppose to concentrate on.
yup.
=)

hmm.
my mood ar.
not as good leh.
dunno wat to start.
i reallie got alot of thinkings todae.
dun ask mi y.
yup.
hmm.
since i hate ppl who force mi to do things tat i dun like.
so natrally i oso wun force ppl to do things tat they dun like.
hmm.
i asked u.
u din wana ans.
i dun mind.
reallie.
since u sae its personal.
i wun force u.
hmm.
if u haf ur own dream ahead of u.
waiting for u achieve it.
plz dun tink negatively of urself.
im reallie sad to hear tat.
u are having such a positive dream.
and u are thinking negatively of urself.
hai.
hmm.
mi ah.
sometimes wana express out sth.
but reallie cant sae it out frm my mouth.
hai.
sth i reallie cant use verbal communications to express out.
den i will use non-verbal communications.
hai.
i seem like got alot of things within mi wana to sae it out.
but cant sae it out.
i believe tat sae it out its good for myself.
but.
sae it to who?
who will wana listen?
hai.
dunno.
no idea.
but.
if now u ask mi.
i oso dunno wat to sae.
i juz feel tat there are alots of things in my mind.
perhaps in my heart too ba.
hai.
the feeling is reallie bad.
hen nan shou.
do u haf the same feeling as mi?
do u understand my feeling?
hai.
hmm.
aft 2mths and 8 daes of break-up.
i noe i look stronger den b4.
and todae.
i decided to let it go le.
coz.
i find no point waiting for a guy.
who is reallie so damn heartless fellow.
he got the heart break all those promises u promised mi.
i will oso do tat too.
yup.
b4 todae i still dun bear to let it go.
i had already remove the necklace tat he given to mi.
but.
i will definately rmb tat.
tat is my first velatine's dae gift frm him.
hai.
ok.
aft todae.
i will try not to talk and think abt him so much le.
yup.
=)

omg.
the whole night doing the eda tools de calculations.
chim lor.
all first yr work.
forgot liao lor.
but.
managed to figure it out lah.
aft the whole night.
haha.
tml morning no account lesson.
but dunno wana go sch early to do eda tools or not leh.
i still miss out 1 page.
sian.
hmm.
jinlong hospitalised.
oso dunno wat happen.
he juz tell mi he sick.
den i help him to print out all his eda tools.
calculations oso.
omg!
wahaha.
=D
wah.
sian lor.
next tuesdae die.
got maths paper quiz.
got eda tools common test.
got 2098 lecture 30qns de quiz.
actually got 1 more 2120 de e-quiz de.
den tell teacher dun wan.
coz got 3 test le leh.
if one more.
sure die.
haha.
den he sae ok lor.
do lecture instead of e-quiz.
nice hor.
haha.
hmm.
yun ask mi wana go visit mdm chia.
i sae i wan!
yes!
i wan!
of coz lah.
onli see her once a yr.
haha.
yeah.
miss her man.
excited to go hougang sec to see her liao.
lol.
hmm.
dunno in time to come back for 2001 de lecture or not leh.
if not den skip lor!
hee.
=p

omg.
im feeling so damn tired man.
i reallie din slp properly recently.
so i din went to band juz now.
coz.
my maths tutorials alot haven do.
need to "do" eda tools de calculations.
preparing for semestral project de persentation.
next week 2098 got 30qns de quiz.
omg.
im so busy.
hai.
tired.
hmm.
went home aft sch coz im din go band.
den went ntuc to buy some stuffs.
guess who i saw.
jin kai wor.
working at ntuc.
tot he din work at mac le.
i asked him.
he sae he working both sides wor.
wah.
still schooling.
as i saw him wearing ite uniform walking towards ite macpherson.
den work 2 jobs.
wat a hardworking guy man.
too bad i din admire him at tat point of time.
tat was like abt 3 yrs ago le.
lol.
too bad he now got gf liao.
wahaha!
omg.
wat am i tinking again.
ya.
im a crazy woman.
tats wat bastered lim sae.
=x
for those who dunno.
i got a bastered lecturer.
aka a-piece-of-shit lecturer.
who always talk craps during lecture.
lol.
and i reallie dunno wat i owe him.
keep saeing i short.
or i short offend him lydat.
ya.
i admit im short.
he sae it infront of my class nvm.
omg.
he sae it infront of my whole lecture grp leh!
omg.
reallie bastered!
lol.
wat if i write all tis in student feedback abt him.
will i still see him next semester?
LOL!
=D
hmm.
sian lor.
tml aft sch dunno got wat meeting lah.
den still hafta do eda tools.
going home at 6 again le ba.
omg.
tired.
hmm.
ya.
sometimes i do admit tat my temper is bad.
but i dun tink is TAT bad ba.
but.
i reallie dun mean any harm.
nth against anyone.
unless their temper is worst den mine lah!
haha.
hmm.
i tink i still got alot to learn in my life.
so tat to improve.
but.
no matter how i improve.
i believe i wun be perfect.
coz.
nth is perfect.
but.
depends ba.
=)

hmm.
went dinner wif samuel and yuwei aft sch.
yup.
went fisherman village.
actually he sae he can come my fetch mi de.
den go parkway fetch yuwei den go fisherman.
hee.
was so happie.
=p
den 5+ he called mi.
sae tat he got sth on.
ask mi go parkway and meet him.
ok lor.
nvm lah.
he oso nv owe mi mah.
he called mi again at 650.
ask mi where am i.
i sae katong.
den i called yuwei.
she haven finish work.
-_-"
i reach le.
meet le sam liao.
she still haven finish.
we wait till ard 720 man.
den she came out.
haha.
he reallie drive his blue peugeot!
omg.
it was damn cool man.
i tink its call converter ba.
which the top can open de.
yup.
so shiock man.
and my hair was so damn messy.
lol.
nvm.
coz it was so fun and cool!
yup!
but.
i tink tat was my first time and my last time le ba.
he is leaving for canada in abt 10 daes?
ya.
sad?
abit ba.
coz when we working.
we 2 can sae veri tan de lai lor.
i wun like dun feel like working wif him.
working wif him is fun.
full of craps.
full of rubbish.
full of nonsense.
bla bla bla.
yup.
will miss those daes.
now.
in store.
can sae is no more tan de lai de ppl liao.
sam gone.
my best partner oso gone le.
ya lor.
sad man.
hmm.
ok.
back to the dinner.
hmm.
tat yuwei still as bimbo as b4.
ya.
i admit im too.
lol.
did alot of nonsense.
sam and mi bth her lor.
haha.
hmm.
i was sort of quiet ba.
din talk alot.
dunno y.
mayb tired ba.
hmm.
den yuwei ask abt himself.
ya.
i noe a little more abt him aft the dinner.
long ago noe he got a godbrother.
how is sam related to his godbro?
his godmum son.
obviously right!
haha.
one more link is.
his godmum daughter is his gf.
yup.
he told us tat.
his gf and godmum is at canada now.
so he is going over to join them lor.
hmm.
den dunno y talk until mi and my "bf".
he sae we now so quiet de.
den yuwei sae.
"wat will happen when they are quiet?"
ya.
yuwei noes abt tat.
but.
i dun tink sam caught tat ball.
ok.
i juz kept quiet.
din sae anything.
hmm.
yuwei sae tat i siao de.
holidae keep on working.
den sam sae coz im hardworking.
ya.
im hardworking.
but.
wat to do.
who ask mi to born in a not so good family.
hafta go out work.
to sort of support myself and family.
hai.
omg.
im so ku ming.
lol.
hmm.
ok.
den aft dinner.
took his ride home again.
omg.
i juz simply in love wif converter le.
lol.
mayb next time my volkswagen oso haf a converter.
haha.
sae until i so rich lydat.
lol.
hmm.
hai.
tink i had made up my mind le ba.
to gif up.
yup.
iris asked mi not to chi hui tou cao.
ya.
i ate it once.
i tink there wun be second time le.
but.
the one who iris was talking abt is not the one im talking abt now.
YES!
I WANA START AFRESH!
=)
hmm.
i tink i decide to delete the 5 testi he wrote to and i din accept de.
and for those few testi he wrote to mi which i had accepted.
i will juz leave it.
as part of my memory.
ya.
its still part of my life.
im not like him.
can juz delete it off.
ok.
fine.
dun talk abt hime liao.
rmb.
I WANA START AFRESH!!!
=)
hmm.
omg.
die.
haven do my maths tutorial.
and hafta go slp liao.
if not.
i got not enough slp.
and i will sure slp during 2009 de lab.
and will kena sae by tat teacher!
argh!
btw.
tink i will not go work tis sat.
juz call and sae i headache lah.
reallie dun feel like going lor.
sure work till 3am.
tired de leh.
holidae i dun mind lah.
but.
my exam coming le.
and tat serene still dun wana let mi off.
still ask mi to choose which dae to work.
I DUN WAN!
aiya.
tat wan will talk to her again.
hmm.
suet ah.
rmb.
START AFRESH!
=)

hmm.

din update on sat night.

coz was damn tired man.

went to band.

den went dinner.

shinyi's bdae celebration.

she was so sad.

xiu cant go.

coz of projects.

yun cant go.

coz of exam.

den tat iris din reply any of her msg.

bad ger she.

den i called iris.

ask her to go.

den she asked kaixin to join along.

gave her a surprize.

she was reallie so shocked man.

coz she din expect them to go mah.

haha.

den hor.

i wana sae sth.

when i see iris tat dae.

her hair was like!

omg!

MUSHROOM!

i laughed on the spot when i see her man.

actually i wana take a photo of her de.

but she dun let mi take.

omg.

tat was a reallie funnie hairstyle man.

hmm.

den we had dinner at kenny foger at suntec.

first time been there.

quite nice lah.

not bad.

haha.

hmm.

tat dae got.

mi.

shinyi.

june.

luvina.

catherine.

shan.

iris.

and kaixin.

den iris and kaixin bought a cake for her lor.

haha.

at least at the end of the dae she is happie.

=)

but.

mi and june was so damn tired.

coz we went to band mah.

den we all went shopping aft tat.

walked awhile.

mi and june became restless liao.

haha.

we went into carrfour.

saw philip working.

lol.

but.

there was so damn much ppl.

i cant take it man.

so irritated.

we walked awhile den get out of tat irritating place.

=x

den shan's dad came and drive us home.

hee.

thanx ah!

mi.

june.

and shinyi lor.

iris.

kaixin.

and catherine go off their own.

hmm.

as i had said i was so damn tired.

reach home ard 1030pm.

went to bed on the spot.

haha.

hmm.

den sundae.

worked at 1230pm.

okok lah.

sam came down.

ya.

having dinner wif him soon wif yuwei b4 he fly off to canada.

either mon or wed.

if mpn.

i ask him to come my sch drive mi there.

lol.

dunno he will or not leh.

tink we going fisherman village.

coz i din been there b4 mah.

den mi and yuwei nv take his blue spot car b4 mah.

den we 2 ask him to drive tat car tat dae.

lol.

we beri bhb hor.

haha.

den hafta see tat yuwei when she having her meeting.

den can fix the dinner dae.

she will tell mi on mon morning.

den i will tell sam.

hmm.

mayb later in the morning will go back to store to write my request.

write earlier better.

i kiasu mah.

lol.

hmm.

btw.

juz now when i was working.

dunno which idiot mop the counter front.

till so wet.

den i walked pass.

den i fell.

omg.

the lucky thing is tat i din shout or scream man.

haha.

tink im too tired to shout or scream le ba.

haha.

and another thing is.

i fell is towards the front.

which mean i fell on my knees.

not my backside.

wah.

if my backside.

sure pain de lor.

den sure cant sit liao.

haha.

lol!

hmm.

seen my exam timetable liao.

cant go back malaysia for my cousin wedding le.

sad.

onli can go back malaysia on CNY le.

hai.

still long sia.

hmm.

hai.

exam coming le.

no more working.

no more shopping.

no more slacking.

no more thinkings.

but.

will i spend the time on studying?

ya.

i reallie hope so man.

rather den doing nth.

mayb studying throughout the midnight ba.

aiya.

see first ba.

hmm.

ytd night work till 1am sia.

wah piang.

was damn tired man.

tis mth i ot till siao man.

haha.

i tink tat serene purposely put mi work when josias working.

pass few weeks oso.

ytd oso.

next week oso!

omg.

cant take it le lah.

work wif him will die leh.

next week try to tell serene dun wana work.

aiya.

tat serene oso bodoh bodoh de lah.

josias dog.

opps!

did i sae sth?!

=x

hmm.

exam time table coming out on 22aug.

mon.

den i tink mayb mon mornng going to store to write request if theres a need.

hmm.

feel like going back malaysia leh.

cousin wedding.

crash wif exam week.

hope tat week finish all paper liao.

den mayb can go back.

aiya.

see how lah.

hmm.

later going band.

den go shinyi dinner.

hai.

sad.

yun not going.

xiu not going.

oso dunno iris got go or not.

she like mia lor.

din see her.

din see her online oso.

tink got lu.

shan.

june.

and mi ba.

hmm.

haven wrap her present yet!

omg!

haha.

hmm.

anyway.

my xiu er jie going to help mi to collect 5566 3rd album!!!

YEAH!!!

sorry tat i cant go.

and.

they are coming singapore on 17dec for their concert!!!

omg.

yeah of coz we going lah.

lol.

hmm.

nth to do leh.

waiting for time to pass to go work.

actually planned to go sch at 8am to do eda tools de right.

den i woke up late!

i onli wake up when kailin call mi!

by den its already 830am liao!

omg.

so sorrie!

but aft awhile she called mi gain ask mi dun need to go liao.

coz the lab is being booked.

-_-"

hmm.

so stayed at home lor.

online awhile.

edited my friendster profile.

uploaded some pics.

but all is old pics lah.

recently din take any photos leh.

sian.

no new photos to upload.

anyway feel free go and view lah.

haha.

den went back to slp for awhile.

wake up ard 1230pm.

went to fix luch for myself.

hee.

hmm.

i tink i shld admit im a silly ger ba.

coz someone sae im a silly juz now.

is kem siong lah.

hmm.

he sae.

"silly ger. if u care for the person u shld tell him n i tink he will apperciate it de."

ya.

he tink tat person will appreciate.

but.

i tink tat person wun ba.

if tat person reallie appreciate.

tat person wun ignore mi le.

hai.

so.

hmm.

btw.

few daes ago i dreamt of him coming to store to fetch auntie alice home.

i tink i hide inside the mgr room.

am i useless?

hai.

watever it is.

its juz a dream.

=)

hai.

juz finish watching superstar de results.

sad.

SaD.

sAd.

SAD.

jun yang is out le!

hai.

first my derrick out.

ya.

damn sad.

den now.

the potential one jun yang oso out le.

hai.

reallie sad man.

den yun de mama sae is supershit rather den superstar.

=D

ya.

wasted my time and effort and abit of money watching tat man.

hai.

ok.

its over liao.

reallie got no interest in watching tat liao.

except when got my derrick on tv den i will watch.

hee.

=p

hmm.

got back my accounting results liao.

common test paper got a.

hee.

ya.

happie lah.

=)

den overall 50% oso got a.

hee.

yuppie!

tink will pass the module le lah.

but hor.

tis elective oso wun contribute much to my gpa.

so i better study harder on my core modules ba.

hmm.

den juz now de long 4hrs break.

mi.

kailin.

and di.

went to amk de pizza hut and eat.

yup.

yummy!

hee.

=p

hmm.

den lecture.

den night class.

den my brother msg mi ask mi buy makan for him.

dunno is dinner or supper lah.

den on my way home.

i walked pass the playground.

the one i played swing wif him tat night.

hai.

ya.

i miss tat scene.

hai.

sad.

hmm.

saw his msn nick.

"disappointed wif love"

wat do he mean by tat?

i dunno.

am i silly to keep on missing him?

zihao once told mi.

"the close of each chapter represent a new beginning"

but.

when is my new beginning?

hai.

i dunno.

i hope the one who lead mi to a new beginning.

will be a beautiful and wonderful beginning.

and wun haf an ending.

hmm.

yup.

but.

when will tis happen.

hmm.

dun worry.

i will wait till the dae arrive de.

i will wait till my last breath.

=)

hmm.

anyway.

later in the morning.

8am ba.

meeting kailin in sch to do eda tools.

and oso our semestral project de presentation slide.

yup.

omg.

i tink ever since last fri.

todae i reach home the earliest.

reach home b4 the sky turn dark.

haha.

bad ger ah mi.

lol.

hmm.

juz did my 2120 de quiz.

and my statement of absence.

hmm.

anyway.

got back all my results le.

a to d i all got it.

lol.

maths aka 2001 a.

micro-p aka 2009 b+.

data network aka 2120 c.

INDEC aka 2098 d.

abit disappointed ba.

my 2098 lor.

hmm.

tink din study much enough ba.

hafta study much more.

so tat final grade wun be so jialat.

hmm.

actually i dunno y my 2120 will get c lor.

i calculate.

cant be so low de lor.

hai.

dunno lah.

nvm lor.

hmm.

den my 2009.

reallie din expect to get b+ de lor.

haha.

tink is the last 2 qns help mi de ba.

tat 2 qns correct already got 40 le leh.

hmm.

tink so ba.

hmm.

tml im still getting back my accounting aka 2047.

dunno will get wat lah.

pass can le lah.

haha.

but hopefully not d ba.

hmm.

not c too ba.

a or b?!

haha.

dunno lah.

dun dare to expect so high too.

wahaha.

hmm.

common test over le.

o lvl eng oral over le.

ya.

preparing for my upcoming exam.

which is in a mth time.

dun wana work so often le.

den tat serene!

argh!

dun wana sae le lah.

but i will still tell her i dun wana work so many daes le.

hmm.

den aft my exam finish.

my o lvl eng paper.

omg.

11 nov.

now see like still got alot of time.

but.

1 blink.

11 nov liao.

hmm.

ismail sae he will help mi leh.

hee.

=)

hmm.

tis sat actually going out to celebrate shinyi's bdae de.

my yun da jie not going.

coz her gp paper coming le.

hmm.

work hard wor ger!

hmm.

den i oso dunno who going sia.

i only noe mi.

june.

and shan going.

the rest i dunno leh.

hmm.

tml got 4hrs de break.

dunno where to go.

but got alot of choices.

cartel.

but di cant go.

fish and co?

watch the maid?

or worst come to worst go do eda tools.

haiya.

dunno lah.

tats y i hate long break.

tml den decide lah.

den tat jinlong ask mi go swim.

omg.

nv in my life i will wear swim suit infront who i not close with without a good figure!!!

LOL!!!

=D

haha.

hmm.

kailin having presentation.

ask mi to pray for her.

hmm.

ok i will pray for her.

but.

forgot to ask her pray to which god?!

guan yin ma?

kong zi?

dua pei gong?

or who?

LOL!!!

no lah.

u noe im kidding de right.

hee.

=D

wish kailin all the best and good luck in ur presentation.

dun gan jiong k.

dun hand shake leg shake like "gan jiong" wor.

=p

relax k.

if cant relax.

tink of mi k.

wahaha!!!

ok liao lah.

full of crap man mi.

do ur best k!

jia you!

(dun worry wun overflow de =p)

hee.

=)

hmm.

juz reach home ba.

ya.

went to band.

den they went to j8 aft tat.

so i followed lor.

haha.

tats y reach home so late.

den on my way home.

at serangoon de bus stop.

saw beng leong.

hmm.

noe my 2120 de results le.

got a c.

hmm.

im angry!

not abt my results.

juz tat.

i spend 2 whole bloody weeks to study so hard.

yet others din even study as much as mi.

din attend lesson often.

still can the same results as mi!

wat the hell is tis man.

and still got the face to sae.

"wah piang eh. onli get c."

wah.

i heard tat.

my face change immediately ba.

haiz.

i reallie hafta study real hard for my exam lor.

is like less den a mth.

suet ah.

muz jia you wor.

so tat can differenciate who study and who din study.

hmm.

juz now aft sch.

on my way heading towards whitley for my band.

saw hanisah on bus!

so qiao.

haha.

actually no lah.

her sch ajc mah.

juz opposite my sch.

lol.

den we chat alot sia.

yeah.

abt kallang mac.

we talked abt all the crews and mgrs.

ya.

things reallie changed alot alot man.

she ask mi.

"now store de youngster fun or not?"

den i sae no lah.

of coz last time de more fun.

cannot compare de.

hai.

ya.

reallie miss those daes man.

den she still rmb the daes when we stars and topcats secretly eat inside bp storeroom.

haha.

den keep on opening the door see got any mgr coming or not.

haha.

den those ppl who she noe already all gone liao.

i think accept mi and dee ba.

and oso louise

siew wah.

and those aunties and uncles lor.

hmm.

took my eng oral liao.

quite ok ba.

reallie hope can make it tis time round lor.

haiya.

dun think so much abt tat le lah.

anyway.

thanx kailin keep on sending mi songs tis few daes.

if not my com will be dull and boring man.

lol.

hee.

=p

yeah.

finally my com back to normal.

but.

all my pics are gone.

hai.

sad lor.

most of my memories are gone.

hmm.

past few daes.

im reallie not free man.

ever since last fri.

went j8 wif kailin to buy clothes for 5 of us.

den went to work at 5pm till 1am.

den next dae went to band.

aft tat went to work at 630pm.

work till 3am.

den.

on sun.

work at 1230pm.

till 2am.

wah.

tired sia.

hai.

den.

later at 215pm.

im taking my eng o lvl oral liao.

frankly.

i din prepare much.

hai.

hmm.

got back some of my results le.

got b+ for my 2009.

got d+ for my 2098.

hmm.

ya.

quite expected tat i wun get good results for 2098.

but.

sometimes things are unfair.

i feel lah.

hai.

i put in so much effort den others.

den ended up the results is abt the same.

if u were mi.

wat will u feel?

hai.

wat to do.

study harder for exam lor.

and hope tat god will treat ppl fairly the next time round.

hmm.

anyway.

wish mi good luck for my o lvl eng oral later!

=)

omg.
haven been updating since sat.
juz 1 word.
5 letters to describe my past few daes.
T
I
R
E
D
ya.
tired.
hmm.
ok.
let mi sae abt my sat.
went to band wif june.
reach there.
onli see ismail.
ya.
onli we 3 bartley de.
lol.
den not enough ppl to combined.
den whole prac juz sectioning.
lucky.
coz im the onli trumpeter!
meng nv go.
phew~
den aft band went to work.
den yuwei went to see us!
miss her so much!
haha.
but she came the wrong time lah.
coz SIS got the CHC event.
den so damn bloody busy.
she stayed awhile den go liao.
hmm.
den work till 3am.
omg.
tired.
den sun.
i work 1pm.
oso whole dae damn busy.
ya.
tat CHC event lor.
and.
coz of tat event.
i extended till 12am.
omg!
im so damn bloody tired man.
hai.
friends.
for those who said im strong.
reallie wana sae thank you.
coz ur words reallie motivate mi to live on.
ya.
although i may look strong.
i still haf times tat im weak.
and burst out into tears.
hai.
ya.
hmm.
den todae.
woke up early in the morning.
and.
went back to bartley!!!
yeah!
i went wif june.
meng.
and ismail.
coz they got national dae celebration.
den sae alot of teachers!
hee.
first saw mrs chow.
still the same.
cant rmb my name.
sad.
lol.
the previous time i went back.
oso the same.
she sae.
"ur name is dunno wat lin de"
den i told her.
"xue ling lah"
haha.
den juz now.
"ur name is xue dunno wat de"
omg.
rmb back.
forget front.
rmb front.
forget back.
lol.
but aft she recall herself.
hee.
den went to look for ms tay and mr sng.
mr sng rmb my name!
happie!
lol.
he rmb june too.
hee!
=p
den chat awhile awhile lor.
hmm.
den their national dae gift veri nice leh.
its a bear.
wearing bartley uniform.
is was so damn cute!
mi and june go and ask ard for it sia.
lol.
ask frm mrs chow.
she ask us go and buy.
-_-"
den ask frm ms tay.
she sae she got no extra.
den went to ms lee.
she oso sae got no extra.
but den she got 1 student.
who dun appreciate tat bear.
tat student throw it on the floor and kick it!
omg.
den ms lee saw it le.
pick it up.
clean it.
and gif it to mi!!!
thanx ms lee!!!
den june got the bear thru her junior.
den awhile later.
saw mrs chow again.
ask mi got the bear liao mah.
i told her haven.
=x
coz i thinking of getting for ismail.
den she sae she gif mi hers.
hers is diff frm the student get de.
is the opening of BICE.
omg.
im so touched!
i keep asking her.
reallie wana gif mi ah.
she sae yes.
so tat i will rmb her.
oh.
yes.
"mrs chow i will rmb u de!!!"
hope she will rmb my name during my next visit to bartley.
lol.
hmm.
den saw marie too.
hmm.
oso saw mr ng.
mr francis.
mi and june got some sweets frm him again.
hee.
hmm.
xiu!
i saw tat wu gui!!!
argh!!!
lol.
hmm.
den went to sch aft tat.
wah.
tired man.
went to 2001 lecture.
i was so sleepy.
den i cannot tahan le.
i slp during 2098 de tutorial.
lol.
hmm.
actually now im still in a blur state.
hafta go and get more slp now.
if not im going to faint tml when i work.
im working 11am to 8pm.
ok.
happie working ba mi.
=)

hai.
sad.
sAd.
SaD.
SAD AH!
y he can change his everything within such a short time?!
or he juz simply lying mi all along?!
argh!
he said tat he hate to take photos.
camera shy.
ok.
i believe.
but.
juz look at his friendster.
so MANY of his own pics!
argh!
wat is the meaning of tat?!
AAARRRGGGHHH!!!
next.
he can bcoz of mi.
go and change to the same phone as mine.
i din ask him to do tat.
he juz wana do tat.
and now.
he can juz simply change phone!
u may ask mi how i noe.
all i can sae is.
im juz observant enough to noe tat.
AAARRRGGGHHH!!!
ya.
i noe tat ppl do change.
but!
so fast?!
so soon?!
AAARRRGGGHHH!!!
feel like hitting onto sth!
feel like throwing things!
feel like shouting out LOUD!
I WANA SHOUT!!!
AAARRRGGGHHH!!!
hai.
im sad.
angry.
disappointed.
heartache.
hai.
things are reallie unpredictable man.
wat will i see tml in his friendster?
"status: in a relationship"?
his gf photos?
their photos?
hai.
ya.
i noe.
the dae will come.
soon?
god noes.
hai.

yahoo~
common test finially over le!
2 weeks ago waited for todae.
wahaha.
ya.
im happie tat common test over le.
but.
todae 2098 de paper sux!
totally sux!
the suxiest common test paper!
argh!
my whole qns1 wrong!
i onli realise last few min.
when i exchange qns paper wif kailin.
den i see her ans totally diff from mine.
den i realise i wrong!
den i quickly change.
but not enough time to correct all the parts.
onli managed to correct a few nia.
ya.
better den whole qns wrong lor.
hmm.
actually i exchange paper wif kailin is coz i dunno the theory.
den she let mi see.
hey!
thanx for ur theory.
although i manage to see tat few.
but at least can get few marks.
hmm.
den oso got another theory qns.
i ask kem siong.
he sit in front of mi again.
den he bring up his paper.
omg.
his handwriting sux!
=x
den i dun wana see liao.
tat whole qns mi and kailin leave blank sia.
14/25 marks leh!
we the remaining 11 marks we got it correct lah.
lucky.
hai.
whether can pass tis paper or not is reallie a big prob man.
ya.
reallie hope can pass lor.
ok.
enough of common test.
hmm.
den juz now aft paper went out lor.
not k box.
coz onli left wif mi and kailin wana go.
ya.
guai guai de.
so din go lor.
not wif june oso.
went orchard instead.
yeah.
shopping.
wif kailin.
diana.
wang dan.
den no seline.
-_-"
oso wif kailin de cousin and friend.
we went to eat pizza hut.
in the first place oso dunno town where got pizza hut.
i called shan and ask her.
den she went online and help mi check
hey thanx!
=)
wah.
we are so full until feel like vomiting.
lol.
diana and wang dan went off early.
den i continue shop wif the rest.
din buy much things.
juz a pair of slippers.
den took neoprints.
hmm.
yup.
tis is my dae aft common test.
=)
hmm.
i admit tat i will cry easily.
but not over small little things ba.
yup.
in the past.
when im still young ba.
i will.
but now.
i wun le.
mayb coz i realise tat my tear are precious ba.
lol.
=D
oh ya.
juz now i saw nice pink jackets.
1 converse and 1 addidas.
ya.
both are so nice.
will buy 1 of them 1 dae.
but dunno when leh.
lol.
hmm.
hoping for a better tml!
=)

omg.
its late in the night le.
am i suppose to be in my dreams le.
instead of blogging?!
somemore im having morning paper @ 830am!
and i meeting them at 7am?!
okok.
tis will be a short one.
hmm.
im was juz tinking.
y my friends can have long-lasting relationships?
and i juz cant do it?
hai.
useless?
ya.
i reallie dun understand.
i did put in effort.
but i juz cant do it.
argh!
y?!
y?!
y?!
or i put in not enough effort?
hai.
hmm.
how to understand a person well?
ya.
i noe cant judge a book by its cover.
so.
i wun do tat de.
how can i see one's true personality?
how can i see one's true character?
hmm.
ya.
mayb i noe how.
the ans is.
"time"
i tink it reallie need time to noe one's true personality.
and one's true character.
am i correct?
but.
how long will it take?
hmm.
i reallie hope tat i wun make anymore mistakes in my life.
but.
i still haf a long long long way to go.
so.
will it happen?
hmm.
dunno.
reallie dunno.
reallie got no idea.
juz wish mi all the best in watever i do.
god bless mi ba.
=)